I looked at the date today, and my world spun in reckless abandon, for a second. February 16, has always been an important day, but today’s meaning was different. Two months ago was Scott’s birthday. Two months ago, we didn’t know. Now we know, why he was in pain. We also know the difference between this narcotic and that. What a lopressor is, how to navigate the maze of UNMC without thinking, and other Cancer facts I never realized I could learn.
Although our lives are frozen, time passes anyway.
My hair fits into a pony tail again. It was just cut, except it was months ago, when life looked and felt different. It feels like yesterday, yet a lifetime ago. My mind might be frozen, but my hair kept growing.
Time passes and all of sudden I realized that my kids’ clothes are almost the same size as mine. They put on my socks today, and we all reveled in the fact that they almost fit my 7 and 5-year-old. My mind might be frozen, but my kids keep growing.
As I ran errands before 6pm, I noticed that it was still light outside. How does that happen? When did our days shift from short to longer again? My mind recalled this week, and all of a sudden I realized that I drove to work with the sun, not in the dark. My mind might be frozen, but the Earth keeps spinning.
Our lives might be frozen, but life goes on and continues. If I stop to think about it, I bet our lives have continued to move forward. However, I am tired, and I am done with epiphanies today. My mind might be frozen, but I keep thinking.