I can’t show you the ugliness of cancer. I can’t show it to you because I didn’t photograph it as we lived that horrifying experience. Scott was a private person, who didn’t want his struggles recorded to be shared with the world. I respected his wishes, without a second thought. The battle was long and hard and we had many difficult moments throughout the whole journey, but I don’t have those recorded for you to see.
CANCER IS NOT BEAUTIFUL or poetic. Between the hospitalizations, insurance fights, medications, treatments, and breakdowns: it’s an ugly disease that wears everyone involved down, until you don’t know if you can handle ONE MORE DAY.
Anyway, I’m looking through our photos from that time, and see that I captured beautiful moments we had as Scott fought cancer. At first, I felt guilty of glorifying this disease, capturing and sharing the beauty.
However, as I raked my yard last week, I couldn’t help but reflect on our family’s journey and the photos of I have of that time. A realization hit me hard: my photos were not meant to capture cancer. My photos show a family living life, loving each other despite the obviously horrific disease that took over their lives. They show life, laughter, and most of all love.
Cancer is not beautiful. It’s a monster. It took my husband, stole our dreams, and changed our whole family’s personalities. Hating it is easy. Living life to the fullest, despite it and what it did to us is beautiful.
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