I’m going to be published!

IMG_0739On our last anniversary, Scott had to be in the hospital.  The frustrating part is that he FELT fine, but his immunity was so low that being home could make him terribly sick.  Instead of taking our kids to a local play and out to dinner to celebrate our 11 years of a (mostly) happy marriage, we were hanging out, together in the hospital.

Needless to say, our spirits were less than high.  We were so grateful to BE together, but still frustrated that cancer cancelled the fun, AGAIN.  That weekend, I read the anthology, I Just Want to Pee Alone, published by Jen from People I want to Punch in the Throat.  It was a brilliant compilation of essays about motherhood and life.  Scott watched a lot of sports, and I read this book.  About every 5 minutes (or less), I laughed aloud.

Upon my laughing, Scott said, “Spill it, what’s so funny?”  I then read a line, paragraph or page from the anthology aloud to him.  This book provided us with lost of laughter that we wouldn’t have had otherwise.

As I shared this book with Scott, I was also a little sad: I heard about this book a few weeks before Scott’s diagnosis.  They were looking for writers to contribute.  I had an essay ready to send in.  I THOUGHT it was funny.  However, I procrastinated, so once our lives turned upside down, I ignored my calendar updates reminding me to submit the essay.  Would I have been chosen?  I have no idea, but apparently, it wasn’t meant to be.

A few months ago, I heard that Jen was collecting essays again.  This time, she wanted FUNNY stories about husbands.  My first thought, was a HUGE NO.  I’m not funny anymore and I’d never get chosen so why even take the time to try?

IMG_0099Then, I remembered.  Our life together was FULL of laughter.  It was FULL of funny stories, epic fails, and crazy misadventures, despite the obstacles thrown in our way.  Scott and I together, could joke through any situation, and were more comfortable laughing together than crying.

Surely, I could write a story in my voice to submit to this anthology.  I MADE myself try.  Tomorrows are NOT guaranteed.  Live for today.  Did I really want to let another chance go?  2014 is the year to try, to make mistakes, to fail, and sometimes succeed.  Life will not get better without risks, so I was determined to take a risk with my writing.

One night, I started writing stories about our life together.  At first, I was sad, and the words wouldn’t come.  But after a few mediocre ideas, some real memories came flowing out of my fingers.  Some were serious, some were funny, and some just were.  As I wrote, I laughed for the first time in a VERY LONG TIME.

Instead of sadness, I felt comforted by these stories, by my memories.  It felt so good to write about happiness instead of grief.  I felt like me, someone who doesn’t come out often enough anymore.  The challenge was making sure the stories I told about Scott would be funny, but also ones he would agree to let in the book.  He HATED men being portrayed as stupid in all things domestic, so I had to make sure I was respecting his memory.

I’m sure you’ve figured out by now, that I was selected!  I have wanted to be published since I was writing for fun, in elementary school.  This book is a dream come true, and it’s making my bigger dreams feel more like reality and less like big dreams.

This hilarious book, I Just Want to Be Alone, is going on sale TODAY, however, it won’t actually be released until March 22.  (The irony of this whole anthology, with the timing of my life, has not escaped me, if you were wondering.)

Ordering from the links on the site, will ensure that you get a copy mailed to you on March 22.

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This book is full of funny stories, from other lady writers.  It’s only to be read by those with a sense of humor, who can see the funny, even in not so funny situations.

The other women in this book have written books, been on TV, performed stand-up, made parody videos that have gone viral, been featured on NickMom, Mamalode, Huffington Post (to name a few), and have been a part of so many other amazing feats.

I’m excited to have my essay in a book, with these amazing, smart and talented writers:

People I Want to Punch in the Throat

Moms Who Drink and Swear

Baby Sideburns

A.K. Turner

My Husband Ate All My Ice Cream

Bad Parenting Moments

The Underachiever’s Guide to Being a Domestic Goddess

The Ugly Volvo

Let Me Start By Saying

Motherhood, WTF?

Sisterhood of the Sensible Moms

Frugalista Blog

Toulouse and Tonic

Nicole Leigh Shaw

Somewhat Sane Mom


The Mom of the Year

Hollow Tree Ventures

When Crazy Meets Exhaustion

Funny Is Family

Abby Has Issues

Kissing the Frog

Nurse Mommy Laughs

Our Small Moments

I’m Still Learning

The Fordeville Diaries

You’re My Favorite Today

Ironic Mom

Life on Peanut Layne


I Love Them The Most When They’re Sleeping

From Meredith to Mommy

The Nomad Mom Diary

649.133: Girls, the Care and Raising Of

Lisa Newlin – Seriously?

Keeper of the Fruit Loops

Magnolia Ripkin

I’m honored to be in this book, that will probably be a #1 best seller, just like its predecessor.  I can’t wait to HOLD it in my hand, and I’m literally counting down the days until it gets delivered to my door.  (I hope it gets delivered to you, as well!)

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  1. Megan Nielsen says

    Congrats! I was just thinking that you should publish something, as you are truly a beautiful writer. Honestly, you could likely even publish when you have written for your blog perhaps in 6 months or so from now, and have it be something like ‘living with grief.’ Have you ever heard of Nancy Berns? She has a website… She does research on the idea of closure and how society pushes it, but that many people either can’t obtain it, or don’t want it, or other things. She herself had a stillborn child a decade or so ago, which is what got her interested in the topic. What you write very much fits with her ideas. Take care.

  2. says

    As one of the co-authors, I was very fortunate to get to see the proofing copy of the book. I LOVED Courtney’s submission. It is nothing short of amazing. I laughed. I teared up a bit. But above all, I was amazed at the strength and fortitude of her character. Go and buy this book…and if you skip straight to Courtney’s essay, no one will blame you.

  3. Maria says

    Courtney!! Huge congratulations and this is most definitely well deserved!! I just ordered… when will you have the signing party??

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