It is so easy to get caught up with life. It’s even easier to focus on the bad parts of life, and so far 2013 has given us plenty of reason to whine. Woe is us: cancer sucks, a deer hit our van, and now it’s the steering is broken. Autism is hard. Our plates are full. We can’t go to Disney. Can we please get a break?!!! Blah blah blah. (Seriously this is meant to be facetious even though it’s all true.)
However, our list of stressors is short: cancer, autism, van drama, work, school, money. I see that very clearly.
For months, I have been trying to write a post about how blessed we feel. How loved and supported we feel. How I would love to give thanks to family, friends, our community, and strangers for going ABOVE and BEYOND to help us, this one little boring family in the middle of the prairie, to cope with cancer. Those words will not come. The post is not written; it must not be time.
(I feel like I am in the second grade again, completing a Thanksgiving project, and these are in NO particular order. I am NOT going to rate my blessings.)
I am thankful for:
God and my faith in Him. Don’t get me wrong, there are times I get a bit sour with Him, but I know there is a bigger picture that I am too small or weak to see. God takes care of us, this I see. I am thankful that I can see that.
Love. I feel love every single day. Whether it’s from a hug, a smile, a kiss, a card, a message, a note, a text, a call, a gift, a meal, or an act of kindness. I am surrounded by love. I am truly grateful.
Determination. It is this trait that Scott and I have together that helped our son when we felt powerless. It has led me to many jobs, and two careers. It is how I keep going when I am certain I have finally hit the end of my rope.
Art. This week, I watched a video where the speaker, Sir Ken Robinson said, “Everyone is born creative, the problem is we get educated out of it.” I am so thankful that I have found my creative outlets as an adult. Photography and writing have helped me through some rough times, and for that, I feel blessed.
Those perfect days. Now, more than ever before, I am thankful those rare days where our family is happy, energetic, smiling, and having fun. We were given one of those days last Saturday, so in true Scott and Courtney fashion, we quickly jumped in the car and found ourselves at World’s of Fun, where we could make the most of this day.
I am thankful for energy. For years I felt terrible, tired, and walking through sludge. I gained weight, couldn’t lose a pound, lost my confidence. Now, I know what was causing it, I follow it, and it has CHANGED my life. I am grateful for this perspective and that I finally found the answer.
Dreams. A year ago, our dreams for this summer were different. We were going to go on a mission trip, travel, and take our kids to some amazing sights. Those plans have changed, but our dreams have not. We will travel to other countries. We will help those less fortunate in a big way. We will go to Disney as a family. I will write a book or two. I will not give up those dreams, even if today I have no idea how to make any of them come true.
Moments. Life is too big. Days can are long enough to have ups and downs. I live for moments. They can be perfect.
Jokes. I love that I married a class clown. One reason why we work as a couple, is because we are constantly trying to find ways to make the other laugh. We started out that way, and 13 years later, nothing has changed.
Support. I don’t know how to live as a person who deserves all of the love we have felt the past 6 months. The fact that we went for 6 months without cooking blows my mind. We have been given generous gifts by friends from Nebraska and Maine. People we know, or knew at some point in our lives. We have also been sent cards and gifts by strangers from England, Australia, and MANY states in America. When I say strangers, I mean, people I have never spoken with, who for whatever reason I have connected with online, have sent us generous gifts of love. I am truly humbled by this. Every gift, whether it was from family or friends, big or small, has been received with love. I cannot even express the gratitude I feel.
I really could go on and on, but this is where my list ends today. So yes, life can get me down, but I am so thankful for the MANY areas that lift me up.
Thank you, Kristi, for sharing your list and encouraging your readers to do the same. This was just what I needed to do today, before I start another week with an enormous stressful list.
What is on your list of thanks?